The story begins last friday , after some days of hard practice in the COT on Pocono i went for a race ,
http://members.iracing.com/membersite/member/Event...sessionid=3901305&custid=36021 this race.
I did pretty good , better then i expected , running top 5.
But during the race i began to feel pretty bad , just a nasty ugly feeling , but i kept on goin.
Till a caution came up , and a guy who ran into me while we where running under caution destroyed my car , i will come back to this guy later.
I tried after a repair to do some laps , but no way , and i began to feel even more crappy then i did before , so i decided to quitt cause there wasnt to gain anything and i really feld bad.
So i parked the car , shut off the computer and was wondering for a min in my livingroom thinking what was goin on .
My wife and Son where sleeping upstairs cause yeh it was alrdy in the middle of the night.
At this moment the Shit hits the van pretty bad . I was getting light in my head , couldnt walk normal anymore, was hyperventilating .
I felled i was in serious trouble , somehow i managed to get upstairs woke up my wife , she right away saw that it was wrong with me ,
and called 911 (112 in my country) at this stage i was starting to pass out , i was soaked in sweat , my wife and son did everything to let me stay awake till the ambulance came. At this moment i had really much pain on my chess and was shaking from top to toe. Like my whole body was bubbling from the inside out.
When the Ambu people arived they right away did there job , and made me rdy for a hospital ride.
( i never ever forget the fear in my wife and son's eyes when the shoved me into the ambulance , i love them more then i love myself )
From my house to the hospital is a 10 minute drive , but during this ride i went into a cardiac arrest , im freaking 37 years old and my heart stopped working.
Lucky for me they where prepared for me and they shocked me right into my live again. i never evr noticed this att all i was to far gone .so if i died at that moment i wouldnt have known ,, real strange feeling if im thjinking about it afterwards.
In the Hospital they right away gave me a angioplasty treatment , and i was guarded for 24 hours.
Im still in the Hospital at the moment of typing this ( Sunday 10:30pm gmt+2) im still not out of the dangerzone but its goin pretty oke for my own feeling.
Ive been moved to another department , where i can use my phone and laptop and have tv.
They still checking my blood every 2 or 3 hours to see what happend cause the doctors dont trust it yet.
And i prolly will get a pacemaker during the next days .
I hope i find out tommorow.
So im thinking of the following . What if : .....
The guy who wrecked me in the race Mr Shane van Gisbergen , if he did not wrecked i would have moved on during the race , would i have made it or would my wife found me in the morning dead in my chair behind the wheel ?
I am thanking u for wrecking me at that moment Shane i really do .
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My son wanted to jump in his car and take me to the hospital by himself ,cause he thought it took to long, what if we have done that , and i went in cardiac arrest during the ride , the doctors said i would have died. .
What if i couldnt make it upstairs or scream , and my wife and son just kept sleeping.
These thoughts made me scared to be alone , and im happy that im in the hospital right now .
And more happy i am to ba alive at this moment ofc . although im still not out of the dangerzone and need to go trough alot of tests and surgery maybe , im in the darlk but happy to be alive. ofc i hope im pullin trough .
Me my Wife and my Son wanna thank the ppl who supporting me on facebook etc . truly preciate it , and i hope i can give u guys a hardtime on track again sooner or later.
Greatings JS
en tis echt erg dat zoiets gebeurt tegelijkertijd!!
kan het niet lezen 
Kheb er ook te weinig geduld voor 